i miss..

:]

chrystallis..

finally starting to sketch out the makings of my giant.

only joy,,

am i willing to give up what i have in order to be what i am not yet?

am i able to follow the spirit of love into the desert?

it is a frightening and sacred moment.

there is no return.

one’s life is charged forever.

it is the fire that gives us our shape.

from the desert, w/love

ny,nm; as always..

could not have asked for ANYONE better to ring in the new year w/

other than friends, old and new, and of course

craiggy, my best and my love.

this year is looking to be a GREAT one,

resolution : patience.

but i’m missin’ muh baby for sure!

two more diaz until we’re back cuddling in the ol’ sea :]

nye love and in love, always

my body..

it needs to dance again.

it’s been years out of training

or any sort of rhythmical work.

it is now, officially and determinately, time to go back.

tis the season, of shootin!!

so, the boys finally took me shootin’..

about 9 weapons of choice among 6 ill trained civilians..

shotgun made my arm go numb,

but the rifles turned out to be my best friends!

reppin the az flag on muh head, unfortunately did not have my ‘merican one

nearly pissing muh pants outta fear

then we got stuck in the sand..

for about 2 and a half hours..

4wheel drive myass!

if that looks like a DRY riverbed to you,

then yes, you are smarter than the army bratt!! :]

all-in-all, great day

concentration slip away, ’cause your baby is so far away.

last day together, decided to skate the entire boardwalk of alki!

don’t mind the dof, still managed to shoot off my broken lens :]

my gay reindeer prancing about..

[accidentally gave him antlers with one bell, on the wrong side]

then he got confused and turned into a bunny..

don’t mind the moustache, we’re having an experiment.

so blessed and grateful to have such a sweetheart

to make me feel this beautiful and weightless,

every day

what love looks like

my bokeh’d skyline, lookin quite festive

take two :]

could’ve stayed here for forever <3

check out that 48x72in canvas in my makeshift studio

an early and unexpected Christmas present.

yup, told ya he was a sweetheart!!

in the DEAD of winter..

and there’s still vibrant color!

annnnd i managed to break my camera,

in the middle of my bfa.

nice.

crash n’ burrn.

dearest st. nik,

reason’s why my baby is dying, again:

,

a year and 1/2 worth of strictly raw work,

plus, a year’s worth of pdf and large format tiffs..

leaves this one with no more space to grow.

more memory please!!

yours, me.

‘don’t mind my moustache..’

mr. ginger stache:

here’s to supportin’ the boy through thick AND thin.

what a successful movember!! :]